Tag: anger

Allowing it all

I never used to allow myself to experience the full range of emotions. I ignored it when I needed to cry. I held it in when I needed to yell. I kept my mouth shut when I wanted to disagree. I stuffed so many emotions down inside me because if they weren’t happiness then I

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I was that person

It saddens me when I see people celebrating how they don’t let anyone in. Or they are done with humans/men/women. It saddens me because I was that person. It saddens me because I still fight that programming sometimes. The thoughts of should I be sharing in this connection or will they just leave me like

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Revisiting my old self

The other night I thought to myself, after hearing numerous times about all the stuff I used to do, that I would give old Shannii a rerun. The Shannii who didn’t speak up and just people pleased because it was just easier. Except this time it wasn’t. And I realized how often I used to

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My rapes caused my cancer

The first man who raped me joked about it with friends. The second man who raped me attended the nightclub I was a regular at. And I said nothing. My body felt it, my body wanted to scream, but I didn’t say a word. I stayed in those peoples vicinity. I thought if I said

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Abortion – My body, My choice.

All this talk of abortion has me feeling so many things. I know many women feel guilt and shame around having had an abortion. I mean after all you only have to see what’s going on in the media right now to realize why that is happening. Some women never talk about their abortion for

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Energy in Motion

Just felt called to clarify about negative thoughts. Or what are perceived as negative thoughts. Because online, outside of my current world, I see so many people just beginning their journeys of self love and spirituality and law of attraction thinking they need to only be positive and share positive and anything other than that

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