Shannii Maree – Strong Without Realising
Life through the eyes of a woman who had no idea how strong she was becoming
I used to (and sometimes still can) be triggered when people judged my life and the way I surrender and allow. But then I look in the mirror and see who is truly happy. I deeply love myself some days more than others. I am deeply loved, devoted to and safely held by my husband.
“I am done” she screams Tears rolling down her face The heat in her body overpowering all her senses She looks for a place to fall into She longs for the safety of a net to catch her while she wails and falls and screams into the abyss Her heart pounds as she witnesses her
The sound came She roared She felt everything that had been holding her back She screamed for the times she felt judged She screamed for the times others didn’t feel her Her soul screamed for journeys past Bile rose Bile escaped She heaved with all her might She felt the arms of support engulf her
I never used to allow myself to experience the full range of emotions. I ignored it when I needed to cry. I held it in when I needed to yell. I kept my mouth shut when I wanted to disagree. I stuffed so many emotions down inside me because if they weren’t happiness then I
It saddens me when I see people celebrating how they don’t let anyone in. Or they are done with humans/men/women. It saddens me because I was that person. It saddens me because I still fight that programming sometimes. The thoughts of should I be sharing in this connection or will they just leave me like
The other night I thought to myself, after hearing numerous times about all the stuff I used to do, that I would give old Shannii a rerun. The Shannii who didn’t speak up and just people pleased because it was just easier. Except this time it wasn’t. And I realized how often I used to
The first man who raped me joked about it with friends. The second man who raped me attended the nightclub I was a regular at. And I said nothing. My body felt it, my body wanted to scream, but I didn’t say a word. I stayed in those peoples vicinity. I thought if I said
All this talk of abortion has me feeling so many things. I know many women feel guilt and shame around having had an abortion. I mean after all you only have to see what’s going on in the media right now to realize why that is happening. Some women never talk about their abortion for
Just felt called to clarify about negative thoughts. Or what are perceived as negative thoughts. Because online, outside of my current world, I see so many people just beginning their journeys of self love and spirituality and law of attraction thinking they need to only be positive and share positive and anything other than that
On the morning of the 21st December we woke at 7am and had a quick breakfast at The Pantry. I was naturally excited, as we all were, to be getting off the ship for a while. Two days onboard we were ready for a break. We had previously ordered snorkelling gear through our Room Stewards
Shannii Maree - Strong Without Realising 