Tag: depression

Sovereignty

If you had asked me 10 years ago what I think people might remember me for I never in a million years would have thought someone would think of the word Sovereignty when it came to me. For years I gave away the power over myself to everyone else. You want to have sex with

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Allowing it all

I never used to allow myself to experience the full range of emotions. I ignored it when I needed to cry. I held it in when I needed to yell. I kept my mouth shut when I wanted to disagree. I stuffed so many emotions down inside me because if they weren’t happiness then I

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Me + Integration

Recently I was going through the biggest integration experience I’ve ever felt. My entire body had aches and pains along with the most horrible migraines and I just did not want to human anymore. But I allowed it all. I didn’t shame myself for feeling the things I was feeling. I knew they were just

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I was that person

It saddens me when I see people celebrating how they don’t let anyone in. Or they are done with humans/men/women. It saddens me because I was that person. It saddens me because I still fight that programming sometimes. The thoughts of should I be sharing in this connection or will they just leave me like

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I understand others have not

I have visited with mortality many times and I understand others have not. I have accepted the idea of death, felt it many times in my own body, and are no longer afraid to die and I understand others have not. I have lived off rations of food and survived and I understand others have

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Revisiting my old self

The other night I thought to myself, after hearing numerous times about all the stuff I used to do, that I would give old Shannii a rerun. The Shannii who didn’t speak up and just people pleased because it was just easier. Except this time it wasn’t. And I realized how often I used to

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Do you think women should dress modestly?

Have you ever considered that you stating women should dress modestly or cover up etc or she is asking to be assaulted, raped or whatever sexual act may occur, may in fact be a part of your protective mechanism or that it gives you a false sense of safety? As if, in some way, if

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Don’t like me?

You may not like the way I operate. And that’s cool. I don’t do it so people will like me. I do it so I will like me. In fact – I love me. I speak my truth because I know how much value my life has been given from witnessing others speak their truth.

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Who are you?

So many people go through life being who they think they are, who others say they are or who they think they should be, when who they truly are is submerged beneath conformity, habit, stereotypes, cultural expectations and other people’s opinions. So ask yourself who you are and assume, just for a minute, that you

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The Infinite Human

The other week I sat in a ceremony which was everything I asked for and more. My life contract being fulfilled in what was peaceful, and yet not so peaceful, moments in time. Held by a man I trust with my life and my beautiful soul sisters who I know can hold me through anything.

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