The other week I sat in a ceremony which was everything I asked for and more. My life contract being fulfilled in what was peaceful, and yet not so peaceful, moments in time. Held by a man I trust with my life and my beautiful soul sisters who I know can hold me through anything.
Few people truly understand what it really means to be there for somebody. Few people understand what it’s like to truly give away all that I have within. Realizing that not everybody is built to handle the rough times with me has been eye opening. Knowing I always get to choose to move forward yet
I can’t save you I can’t heal you I can’t lead you into the heavens I can’t take you into the depths I can’t make you swim in the whirlpools of consciousness I can’t make you open your eyes to the horrors affecting others I can’t do anything FOR you Except be ME ME in
Every day I keep living Even though every day I want to die Nobody knows that every day I imagine my own death The peace that I might finally experience Every day I want that peace And every day I think of the pain that I will instill in my loved ones if I die
The first man who raped me joked about it with friends. The second man who raped me attended the nightclub I was a regular at. And I said nothing. My body felt it, my body wanted to scream, but I didn’t say a word. I stayed in those peoples vicinity. I thought if I said
Just felt called to clarify about negative thoughts. Or what are perceived as negative thoughts. Because online, outside of my current world, I see so many people just beginning their journeys of self love and spirituality and law of attraction thinking they need to only be positive and share positive and anything other than that
“You feel so calm, your heart is beating slower” my husband said to me this morning. That is the result of my self-love and breath work workshop I participated in yesterday. The workshop kept popping up in my feed for weeks and for once instead of just jumping in like I tend to do I
2016 was the year I found me, the new me if you will. It’s the year I started doing the things I had only dreamed of previously. I signed up and completed a Habitats for Humanity home. I traveled for 3 weeks in America being the child that I never had the chance to be.
As I scroll through my Facebook memories I always see the inspirational quotes and statements I used to share. And all the people who would comment saying they loved my positivity or how reading that status changed their day or a myriad of other statements that were in support of what I was doing. Yet
This weekend I have committed to a 3 day retreat, which was offered to those of us in the Create Live Grow soul family. I came to find myself or have some time to myself or at least help my journey anyway. I knew it would be a safe space to experience everything I could