2023

The end of 2022 saw my body kicking me in the ass with the biggest reminder that it’s not a normal body.

Well in truth it’s been coming for a while but I have been ignoring it.

I have felt the fluid in my joints and body slowly building but pretended I didn’t.

I had other ‘more important’ stuff to think about. That’s what I told myself anyway.

Until the second weekend of December when it was filled with fluid so much so that I could barely move.

Except this time I knew exactly what to do.

And I know exactly what to do with my doctors “you gotta stop acting like your body is like everyone else’s” words ringing in my head.

Last year I had drunk way more alcohol than I have in a long time.

Wine nights with the girls. Brunch, lunch and dinner dates. Birthday parties and celebrations galore. And I just kept drinking pretending my body will process it.

Last time this happened I couldn’t walk for 2 weeks. And ended up with jaundice. I’m not letting that happen this time.

I’m still tired and a bit achy. But now the fluid has gone.

And whatever my stomach wasn’t digesting at the time I’m pretty sure has now been given the boot.

I went to the doctors and had numerous blood tests and am now starting all the investigations that come with missing half my digestive system.

I’ve moved through anger and sadness.

To now be at peace with whatever may come my way.

And it has lead to my word for 2023.

Or rather two words.

Health optimization.

I kept ignoring these words because I didn’t want to do what I know it will take 🤣

But now I’ve accepted that it is what my soul is yearning for.

So here I am – 2023.

Can’t wait to see where I’m at by the end of this year.

Xo S