Yep I still get triggered

I used to (and sometimes still can) be triggered when people judged my life and the way I surrender and allow.

But then I look in the mirror and see who is truly happy.

I deeply love myself some days more than others.

I am deeply loved, devoted to and safely held by my husband.

I have an amazing relationship with my children.

And I know it hasn’t always been this way.

I’ve done the freaking hard yards. And I’m done with that.

I used to daydream about winning the lotto and what we would do with the money.

But nowadays I can’t even think of it.

Not sure if I’ve lost my imagination or I am settled in my current life. Maybe a bit of both 🤣

You don’t have to desire to live my life. I honour those who speak into that they would love to though. I know that can’t be easy.

It’s probably shock horror to the people who think the way I live is honouring the patriarchy 🤣 that’s my favourite comment.

Because anyone who believes that probably hasn’t been loved the way I am. I am in no way abused or controlled by my husband.

I choose to live my life in all ways.

And with how filled with love, freedom to do/be/change/explore/allow anything and everything, and being able to pursue my passions because I love them, not because I NEED an income from them, that my life is, I don’t know why anyone would choose to be triggered by it rather than be happy.

And isn’t everyone chasing that? Like let’s be honest here 🤷🏽‍♀️

Otherwise they wouldn’t be signing up to the next passive income thing or creating a course that sells itself or the whole host of things people do to obtain the life of freedom.

“One day I’ll be able to…”

And hey, women will say they don’t want to depend on a man to provide for them while at the same time depending on their boss or their clients. It’s still provision my loves. You are still depending on someone to pay you.

So, Before I would allow anyones wounding to change how I feel about my life, I think to myself – who is truly the happy one?

If you need to base your impact in the world on a number it sounds like you are coming from an ego place and not a heart place to me. And that’s cool, for you. It’s not for me.

I don’t need to know how many people I impact. I feel it happening and I have people reach out and that speaks loudly for me.

I’ve never been significance driven and I know that scares some people. One of my favourite things to do is see what countries have read my blog. Can anyone say world impact from home?

There is such a profound gift in being able to receive. Without the needing to do something to be of value to receive.

And even more so in feeling the safety of the life I live. I don’t feel the need to have a back up plan, because I don’t plan for this life to fail.

Old me would have. Old me didn’t have faith, trust or safety in anyone. This me has all of that within herself and so, she knows, she can have that with her husband.

And if my life triggers you in some way because of that I invite you to ask yourself – where are you actually trying to find significance BEFORE being able to receive?

Signed off – the woman who gets paid to do nothing (literally) but be herself that some are triggered by but very few will say it to her face, who still makes an impact in the world without needing to attach myself to it. (And yes i’m friends with my ego too)

Xo S