Allowing it all

I never used to allow myself to experience the full range of emotions.

I ignored it when I needed to cry.

I held it in when I needed to yell.

I kept my mouth shut when I wanted to disagree.

I stuffed so many emotions down inside me because if they weren’t happiness then I didn’t want to know about it.

Not a surprise I spent many years of my life since I was a teenager suicidal.

My body literally couldn’t cope with everything I had stashed away inside it.

Years I went to psychologists never actually telling them I had been raped.

Only giving them part of my story.

People can only help you as much as you are willing to let them in.

Yet it wasn’t until I started finding all these other therapies that I really started to let go of everything I had stored away.

There isn’t only one way to get help if you need it.

There are so many options available.

I’m grateful to my last psychologist I had because she included some of these other options in her therapy and I was actually honest about EVERYTHING with her.

If the ‘professionals’ started working together with all these other therapies I feel we could have huge shifts in the mental health industry.

Talk therapy is not enough.

Not in my opinion.

It’s surface level that doesn’t get to the bottom of anything.

Our bodies know all. And until you get into the layers of that you will keep coming up against the same issue time and again.

The system, as it is, is not working.

What will it take for more people to realize this and make some changes?

Xo S