Shannii Maree – Strong Without Realising
Life through the eyes of a woman who had no idea how strong she was becoming
The other week I sat in a ceremony which was everything I asked for and more. My life contract being fulfilled in what was peaceful, and yet not so peaceful, moments in time. Held by a man I trust with my life and my beautiful soul sisters who I know can hold me through anything.
Few people truly understand what it really means to be there for somebody. Few people understand what it’s like to truly give away all that I have within. Realizing that not everybody is built to handle the rough times with me has been eye opening. Knowing I always get to choose to move forward yet
I can’t save you I can’t heal you I can’t lead you into the heavens I can’t take you into the depths I can’t make you swim in the whirlpools of consciousness I can’t make you open your eyes to the horrors affecting others I can’t do anything FOR you Except be ME ME in
Every day I keep living Even though every day I want to die Nobody knows that every day I imagine my own death The peace that I might finally experience Every day I want that peace And every day I think of the pain that I will instill in my loved ones if I die
While some are seeing an outpouring of fear there are those who are seeing, sharing and feeling an outpouring of love. I realise in these times it may look like and even feel like a whole lot of fear and hatred and mistrust and, yes, that is present. But to me, I see and feel
Yesterday I shared honestly about what I was feeling in relation to a group call. I was then asked to be intentional with what I share because I could encourage others not to show up. I almost didn’t share what I shared because I knew how it would be responded to but I chose to
The first man who raped me joked about it with friends. The second man who raped me attended the nightclub I was a regular at. And I said nothing. My body felt it, my body wanted to scream, but I didn’t say a word. I stayed in those peoples vicinity. I thought if I said
Why is she educating people on body image issues? She has the perfect body. Flat stomach, perky boobs, long legs what could she possibly have learnt about overcoming body image issues? Yep those are the thoughts that sometimes go through my head, or have in the past. Because all the people I saw sharing about
This morning I said to a friend my kids are on school holidays so I’m more free with my time since I don’t have to worry about drop off or pick up. Then I realized it’s singular now – I have a child at school, not plural. My children are growing up. My oldest just
What is loving someone unconditionally? First I’ll tell you what it’s not. At least not in my reality. Let me know if you agree or disagree. Even better tell me in the comments what you believe unconditional love is after you have read this post! It’s not allowing someone to control you from insecurity. It
Shannii Maree - Strong Without Realising 