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Why do the words Best friend trigger me?

I have come to realise the words best friends and bestie create a reaction in my body now that I had been trying to avoid. I have noticed I have stopped referring to friends as those words. They come with pain and a reminder of hurt for me. And after all, why do we as

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Lady of Leisure

I used to be referred to as a lady of leisure all the time. I used to laugh it off, but it would often be accompanied by feelings of guilt. Should I be enjoying living my life the way I am? Should I be happy that I get to do whatever I want, whenever I

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The Martyr Mask

Humans have massive savior complexes – myself included. Think about it – how often have you thought ‘I could have done more for them’ Or I haven’t done enough Or I’ve failed them Or… I could go on for days with these suggestions. I think the martyr complex, probably goes back to learning about Jesus

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A man up for a challenge

No matter what I challenge this man with he always steps up to it. I don’t know or respect another man more deeply than I do him. I married him for a reason. Not that I knew it back then. He willingly owns every part of himself even when his ego doesn’t want him to.

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Womb Trauma. Yes it’s real.

I’ve just now realized that the whole 9 months mum spent carrying me were probably spent numb and not wanting to connect just in case the same thing happened again. You see, my mum experienced 9 stillbirths and miscarriages before she had me. She had to grieve that many babies before I arrived. Womb trauma.

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Thoughts before a Vow of Silence

I can already feel my ego freaking out. But what about this, you will miss this? And singing – how will you not be able to sing? You are going to struggle and probably quit so why even start? I could write so many more of the lovely thoughts that have visited since I announced

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Miss Independent

When I moved to Australia as a 15 yr old with my younger brother and sister I never could have guessed the direction my life would take. 6 months later after meeting the guy who would later become the father of my two oldest children I moved into his place with his dad and brother.

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Guidance, knowing or avoiding responsibility?

The minute you think you know is the minute you know nothing. You have beliefs. Beliefs that you have a right to, just as everyone else has a right to theirs. NONE of us unequivocally know what is happening right now. Even if God himself has told you what is happening you are a human

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I am not for the masses

I’m not for the masses. I am not here to share things that everyone agrees with. I am not here to worry about if what I’m saying will resonate or trigger. I am not here for perfection. I am not here to only post good photos of myself and feed into the matrix causing so

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Don’t forget where you started

This is my opinion – take it or leave it… The biggest problem in the world right now is people have forgotten where they came from. We forget that sharing the knowledge we have now, came with all our experiences in life and to get to where we are now we had to go through

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