I am not here for it

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You can keep the friendships where you gossip and bitch about others instead of having conversations about what the actual issue is.

You can keep the friendships where you feel you need to compete with each other.

You can keep the friendships that are only one sided.

You can keep the friendships of convenience.

I am not interested.

I want to talk about the deep, the dark, the light, the universe, the real, the pretty and the ugly.

I want to see and be seen in my true fullness not some dead thing that drinks to drown her sorrows and needs to be told she is pretty to feel good. (Yes that was me at one stage in my life)

I want to feel your heart strings attach to mine when we look into each other’s eyes.

I want to be able to look you in the eyes and say I trust you.

I am willing to go to the depths and explore every inch of my human and life instead of hiding and lying about the things that have happened to me/for me/around me and know that you have that same level of commitment to yourself.

There is no judgement because we look at each other and say I’ve been there.

I am not for everyone and I don’t want to be for everyone.

I am here to nurture my inner circle and that’s it. I’m not here to have a thousand friends and love everyone.

I can have love for everyone and not have them in my inner circle and that’s ok. I previously thought it wasn’t.

I have hung out with ‘nobodies’ and I’ve hung out with famous people. I see the truth in you no matter what, even if I don’t say it I see it. Being famous doesn’t change that.

I don’t want to be around people who are trying so hard to be something they aren’t. Because I see through your stories and acting and hiding.

I don’t pretend I don’t know what I’m doing when I’m doing something. I’m not afraid to admit hey I may be making a mistake here but you know what – it’s what I need to do right now.

I want to honour you in your full truth. Because your authenticity is all that matters to me. It’s a knowing in my being, I don’t know how, it just is.

Human Design 2/4 over here 🙋🏽‍♀️

You can’t win me over with your lies and compliments.

I choose real.

I choose friends who ask what is alive for you right now.

I choose friends who say what the fuck are you doing to my face not behind my back.

I choose friends who say I got you and they mean it.

I choose friends who say what they mean and mean what they say.

Plain and simple.

So don’t pretend with me because I’m not interested.

I won’t have you in my inner sanctum.

I am putting down anything that’s not for me and picking up the magic instead.

Im not here to impact millions. I’m here to nurture and love those closest to me. And they will be the ones to impact millions.

I am here to be me, no one else.

What does it look like to be you?

Xo S

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