I could be happy and smiling but deep down wondering why I actually wasn’t good enough or how I could do or be better.
I still have my moments of questioning sometimes. But then I heard the lesson of ‘maybe people aren’t giving you recognition because you need to give it to yourself first’.
Holy truth bomb. I was STILL looking outside of myself for others to say yep you are doing it right.
So I stopped. Anytime I noticed myself seeking for someone to say you have got it, I gave myself some love, acknowledged what I was feeling and went on my way.
The more I did this the less I noticed I needed to do it.
It’s been something I’ve battled with my whole life. No one told me they were proud of me until I was 25.
I can’t imagine my children going 25 years without anyone telling them how awesome they are.
And I thought I had it. “I got me, I’m proud of me, I don’t need anyone to say it”.
Until it was said.
And then I realized wow ok I actually do want to be told that someone does actually see me and what I’m doing.
I was a words of affirmations love language person back then. So I needed it.
These days I’m a quality time gal with a side of Acts of Service. Affirmations are at the bottom.
I’ve come to realize that if I’m here to empower then I had to go through those battles to find my way to the other side so that I am more able to help others find their way.
So yes now I do got me, truthfully, and that’s the most powerful I’ve felt in a while.
Have you felt this too? What are some steps you have taken to support yourself?