Gaslighting myself

Have you ever realized you gaslit yourself?

I recently had an incident where I was pushed off a log in front of a fire by a guy.

I didn’t think much of it.

Until the people around me told me how upset they were by it and wondered why I hadn’t said anything.

In my head I couldn’t wrap my head around why they were angry.

I was fine.

Disrespected, rude, assault, were all words that came up.

All I could think was it was just a joke why does it matter?

It could have been worse. In fact I have experienced worse.

And that was where I realized it.

The gaslighting of myself.

Because I’ve experienced worse that means this isn’t anything to be upset about.

Trauma had numbed me.

How many times have you told yourself “other people have it worse so I shouldnt be upset?”

I’ve had people say that exact statement to me thinking it is helpful.

But as I’ve said to many people over the years – telling someone they can’t be upset because others have it worse is the same as telling someone they can’t be happy because others have it better.

It doesn’t work like that.

Stop gaslighting yourself.

You deserve to feel whatever you need to feel to heal.

Remember that.

Xo S