Who am I if I’m not posting body positivity?
Will people still like me if I’m not posting that I celebrate my body daily?
Is that the only thing worth sharing that I have?
Have you ever considered who you are without your stories?
The assaults, the money, the family, the relationships, the ego, without all the things that I believe have made me, me?
The meaninglessness that comes with thinking those thoughts?
The realization that I get to be, do, have whatever I like.
It’s not because of the stories that I am who I am.
It’s because I made a choice.
I gave everything in my life a meaning and used that to pursue what I wanted, or maybe not pursue what I wanted.
If our identity is attached to a certain aspect of ourselves it can be taken away.
If I don’t want to post that content anymore does that mean I’m not worthy?
Did me sharing that content really make a difference to anyone’s lives or is that just my ego being placed up high?
Who am I without the stories?
It’s a question I ask myself repeatedly.
If I have shared something that has been a beacon of light in one persons life then it mattered. Sometimes that person was me.
It may be why I share so many things that are different. Pick a niche and stick with it they say.
My thoughts and experiences are revolving and evolving.
I don’t want to ever be so attached to a story that it stops me from moving to a new place in my life.
Yet I know when I share my body image and what I feel about it I also know that it is opening many peoples minds to a different way of thinking, and perhaps of loving.
So while I don’t always share the same things as I used to when I do, know that I am doing it because I know it may help even one person.
Whether that means I am attached to a story or not I am not sure.
Xo S